How Hugh Jackman inspired me to go to confession

You may have heard of a movie called The Greatest Showman that was inspired by PT Barnum's life and the creation of the Barnum and Bailey Circus. The soundtrack to the movie is absolutely amazing! I love all the music from the movie, but I can't get through a day without listening to "From Now On" at least a half dozen times-no joke!

Without giving too much away about the movie, Hugh Jackman's character realizes while singing this song that he needs to make a change in his life to get back on track. Recently, I decided to look up the lyrics so as to better sing along and the following struck me:

I drank champagne with kings and queens

The politicians praised my name

But those are someone else's dreams

The pitfalls of the man I became

For years and years

I chased their cheers

The crazy speed of always needing more

But when I stop

And see you here

I remember who all this was for

Perhaps it was the season of life I was in when I read these lyrics, but I felt a pull on my heart. How many times had I fallen into a pit because of things I did or did not do for my own selfish reasons? How many times did I crave more of something that was not good for me? What/Who was I chasing after? Oh how I needed to stop, reflect, and seek God. And for me, I needed to go to the Sacrament of Reconciliation (Confession) and make a new commitment with God.

Thankfully I was able to go recently to receive the Sacrament. After my confession I could not get the chorus out of my head that is as follows:

And from now on

These eyes will not be blinded by the lights

From now on

What's waited till tomorrow starts tonight

It starts tonight

And let this promise in me start

Like an anthem in my heart

From now on

Now every time I listen to Hugh Jackman sing this song I think about my need for the Sacrament of Reconciliation and God's mercy and forgiveness. But, also my own part to renew my commitment to Him and let it be in my heart-not just my words. From now on...

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Dear Lord,

Give me the graces I need to not fall back into the pit, avoid the things that take life away from me, or chase after empty promises and things. Please guide me to always see your face in my daily life. Walk with me as I make this new commitment to follow you more closely. 
Amen.

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Simply a little pencil in God's hand,

Elizabeth